Mon, Oct 3, 2011 - I think I'm an Asshole

Well I begrudgingly made it to the gym for some uphill walking. (hey that counts as exercise.) When I got out of the gym, Rain was already texting. She had stayed the night with MacGyver (surprise) and had a big talk about the nature of their association, which turned out to be more serious in his eyes than she had really understood...or at least that's how she perceived it. I'd say time will tell. 

It made her happy to know, of course because of her strong feelings for him. But it also tore her up a bit because of her still strong feelings for me. Plus, she can't bring herself to tell him how close we are. And she really hurt when he apparently painfully asked if we had been intimate.

She lied. She said he had told her that he was jealous of me. I find that strange as I see him as having more going for him than I have. Funny how we're all a little insecure when it comes right down to it.Then again, maybe he was just using that to pull feelings out of her...it's probably what I would have done. Still, had she told him about the nights when we drenched her bed in sweat, the handcuffs, the candle wax, the tantra, the squirting, squishing orgasms one after another that left her bed soaked in the middle...maybe he would have been a little jealous. That girl and I rock some CRAZY sex!

She and I texted all day off and on. Finally I insisted that I had meant what I said. I wanted her to cut me loose and pursue something meaningful with MacGyver. She asked if that was really how I honestly felt and I answered a dry, "Yes, Rain." As I write this entry now, a full day later, I haven't heard another word from her since then.

Shaking it off, I finished up a busy workday with a list of to-do's before I leave for the rocking city of Boise, Idaho. woohoo

More drama on tap though...Barbie's grandmother died today. She's avoiding it, trying not to cry. Her mom shit on her and walked into the bathroom at her office as she sat in a stall and said, "Oh hey, your grandma died today. Just thought you should know." That family is something else, man. I've never seen anything quite like them.

So as she hid out in her office for the evening, I went by the old house and had a decent dinner with the kids. At least decent as far as my two were concerned. You see, Barbie had come home and couldn't speak during dinner from being so upset. Eventually, I had to tell her daughter about her great grandmother. She flipped about no one telling her sooner and threw a crying fit which made Barbie break down and leave.

I felt badly for her and went in to try to bring her up but it wasn't happening. So I hung out with my girls a while longer.

It was getting late, and I'd had about all the crying and drama I could stand.  Just as I was leaving the house to head back to the office for the night, I got a text from Rowdie wanting to know if I wanted to go have a couple of drinks. Against my better judgement I went ahead and went out with her and her friend Kat, wondering if my chances would go up getting the two of them and get in bed together.

You'll remember that last time we were together, we all went into the bedroom and started stripping down. Rowdie said to Kat, "let's fuck this guy."  Kat seemed up for it as we climbed into bed, but abruptly jumped up, pulled her pants on and took off out the door. Cold paws? I wanted to try it again.

Well as I had suspected, a couple of drinks turned into a long night ending up at their house, flirting around a little bit and talking a little dirty. But Kat was still hanging back. She has some reservations I guess. I can respect that. And since it's her place, it's not really cool to just take Rowdie in and give her the long hard one with her friend waiting outside (like I did last time).  Eventually I got tired and wanted to leave. They might've been up for some craziness with more drinking and time...I wasn't going to wait around to find out.It's 2:30 in the morning by that time, and frankly I don't have all damn night. I'd rather sleep. 

'Night all.

Sun, Oct 2nd, 2011 - Letting Her Go

On tap for today, the opera La Boheme with my girl, Rain. Plus catching up on the one thing I didn't get done yesterday...finishing the proposal for the downtown space. I'm so going to love living in that downtown loft.  I'll get you some pictures asap.

A call from Barbie took me by the old house to deliver McDonalds to her hungover self and her kiddo. She had gone out with some girlfriends and some asshole the night before. But on the plus side, Barbie looked GOOD.  Hell I even got a back rub and a little snuggle out of it for being such a nice guy. This single thing looks good on her. I always figured that would be the case. 

Now, I did however tell her that I'm no longer willing to pay for her boob job. She was a little pissed, but I'm just not gonna be okay letting that money go to a greatg set of boobs that every guy from now on is gonna love and I'm gonna resent. Let her buy her own boobs. Interestingly, she will now be the 2nd ex fiancee who went and got her boobs done after I broke up with them. What a weird ass trend.

So the opera was mindblowingly good. Its my first full length opera and I was enthralled. The story was so well written. The emotion was visceral and the vocal performances rocked you to your soul. I'm officially an opera fan. I also learned that the story from La Boheme is actually the background story of the Broadway musical "Rent." Apparently, I was the only ignorant ass who didn't know that.

Planned to get to work afterward, but ended up so hungry and really enjoying my time with Rain that we decided to extend the date. Took my favorite intensely authentic Mexican family restaurant, hidden off the beaten path up in the Barrio. I wanted the food...and didn't miss the opportunity to catch her off guard by calling ahead and talking to the hostess in Spanish. Hehe. It's the little things that keep them excited.

Amazing food! Followed by a trip to a hipster coffee dive for continued great conversation. We were getting pretty close and talking deeply when I suggested we go to her house. That  led to her letting me in a little deeper still as we lounged nude on her couch, listening to some chill vibe music. As with most girls as cool as her, she comes off as carefree and bubbly, but when they open up, you find out they had some kind of serious shit in their background. I won't divulge too much, in case she ever comes across this. But in her case, it would suck to have parents who didn't like you much. I suppose over the years, you'd turn in to someone so goddamn likeable that no one would have a choice but to love you. You'd be free, happy, refreshing, and exciting...like the rain.

We went over to her little bohemian house. She showed me her pantings, and gave me the one that I liked most. But she kept seeming uncomfortable when things would turn sexual. I sensed that she's really looking to put stock in this chance with MacGyver. So I laid in bed with her a while, snuggled and kissed a lot, and then got dressed, gave her a look that said something's about to change, and made my exit. 

She didn't accept it readily and wanted me to stay there kissing her. She can really lock a guy in with her phenomenal lips and hyper-passionate kisses. But I was ready to make a shift. As I left, she stood in the doorway pouting a bit and said, "I'll see ya later." I said, "maybe." She replied, "probably." And that was the end of it, gang.

I went to my office and text her to tell her my decision. I was done. I figured an impersonal (and intentionally dismissive) text would make it easier for her to turn her back and focus her energy elswehere without regret. It pained me to do it tat way, but it was necessary. I didn't sleep much.

Sat oct 1, 2011 - The Robot Party

Slept in on the couch at the house until 9:30. Decided I'd rather be there to see the girls get up than be stuck at the office.

Made their day with donuts and chocolate milk before I headed straight to work on my task list, paperwork, web redesign (sales on the e-book site are non existent thus far and it's pissing me off). Got that part done and went shopping for costume stuff for the big Binary Party tonight...it's a robot themed birthday party for a buddy of mine who tricks out cars for a living. This group of people includes some really successful nerds. Those are pretty much my favorite kind of people because they're really good at something they're passionate about. And they have the money to do some really cool shit when they all get together. They all own a cabin in the mountains together and the trips up there are EPIC. I knew the people at the party would go all out for this whole digital robot thing, so I needed some pretty specific stuff to complete the look...silver body paint, led's, wiring, silver pants, and body armor.

Strangely somehow I manged to get it all done before heading over to Rain's house to get ready. We looked very robotesque, and I was pretty proud of the outcome, I gotta say.

 

Rain's homemade top to bottom robot suit...from a bustier, a skirt, some high heels she was willing to sacrifice and a whole lot of metallic duct tape.

 

Me post party...love being silver

 

Me in the dim light, showing off the chest strobe, led hand lamps, and red chasing lights on the ends of my shoes, ala Kit from Knight Rider.  FUN!!!

GREAT party. Everybody came out in the robot gear. There was an amazing buffet of liquors plus jello shots and even a bottle of MacGyver's famous homemade moonshine.  (peach) Sooooooo good! We downed the whole bottle in record time. Totally a moonshine fan!

Wish I had more pics to share with you from the party...I'll dig around and see what I can find. It was a pretty crazy experience overall...my favorite robot had an iPad framed into his chest and alternated Kama Sutra positions with robot dance visualizations all night. The host had wired the light system from a Cadillac Escalade into his robot suit along with a stereo system, all powered by a battery pack out of a Dewalt drill. See what I mean when I say that nerds with money are the best???

 

Left about 1:30 after Rain decided to go home with MacGyver. I had a hunch that would be the case. She's been trying to see us both and isn't very good at polyamorous relationships. He's less into her than I am. But she knows he still represents more chance of something long-term. That's not my game at all. Plus the fact that he knows she's been seeing me pretty intensely has really piqued his interest in her in that inherent, Pavlovian, competitive way we guys so often react. Pretty sure I'm just gonna let them take a shot at it and move on. I gotta get some of my projects moving further ahead and I need my time back.

Women are a lot of time investment. Really contemplating making he trip to Vegas for the Frank Kern deal too, which will really cost me money and therefore time. Plus with the new downtown place probably coming up, I'm gonna need even more time to work on it. 

I could have hung around with the rest of the crowd and seen what went down with some of the women there, but the truth is, it felt like a really complete day even without getting some woman all worked up and horny. I slept well...it was agood day. : )

Friday, Sep 30, 2011 - Naked Spanking

Woohoo! Today,  I got the marketing launched on the new site for the e-book I wrote. I got a message from Google saying they had reviewed my arguments as to why my account should be accepted...they agreed with me, and launched the marketing. I love winning. Yahoo and Facebook have yet to capitulate. We'll see.

Directly after that little success, I went to a meeting and closed a consulting case for about $4000. That helps too.

In a rush, I ran from that meeting over to the offices where Dutch and I recorded 4 marketing videos for the new seminar launch. It's hilarious to actually get paid to just have fun times hanging out and recording our conversations. Turns out Dutch is significantly zanier than I would have ever guessed. He plays it so reserved so much of the time. He's a stoic, martial arts master. Then he just busted loose all this goofiness as we were filming! Totally caught me off guard.

After a few hours of work there, I called about an old building downtown and ended up meeting with the owner. We're going to work out an agreement where I'll renovate the space in exchange for moving myself and the business in there for the next few years. A kickass 1920's loft downtown??? Yes please. 

After the meeting, it was about 7:30 in the evening. I had gotten a call from Rowdie. She had texted me the night before, just after midnight. It was officially her birthday, and she wanted to start celebrating immediately by asking me over to her place. I was "otherwise occupied" at Rain's house and didn't respond to the text.

Today, however, I was free for birthday fun. I finished the night off with Rowdie and all her friends. Everyone was there for her birthday celebration and we all went out to dance and get a little wild at the club. The great part was that the girls were all dressed as super heroes and villains for a theme day at their restaurant.  We closed the dance club down as the DJ cranked out a thumping dance mix and rocked it on the floor, surrounded by Batgirl, Robin, Catwoman, and Poison Ivy! Rock on!!!

                                                    Rowdie and her roommate, Catwoman, dressed up.

The night ended up with everyone going back to the Rowdie's place with her 2 roommates and about 8 other people. 

Naturally, plenty of drinking and craziness ensued. Somebody pulled out a ladder and the girls and I climbed up and hung out on the roof for a bit. This was the second time we had done this. The first time, we had smoked a bowl, gotten crazy drunk, and then climbed out the window and up onto the ridiculously steep roof to lay there and look at the stars together. I laid there on my back with the two girls snuggled up next to me, one on each side of me. That, my friends, was a great night. This night was a bit too crazy with too many people to have that kind of intimate fun.

Some of the people inside ran to the store and brought back breakfast. They made the worlds biggest skillet of eggs and sausage for breakfast burritos which ould have been repulsive any time and place other than 3 a.m., shitty drunk. It was sooo gross and sooo good all at the same time. They must have picked the greasiest sausage known to man, cranked the stove up to Max and proceeded to smoke everybody out by browning the sausage, leaving the piles of grease in the pan, and just dumping a dozen eggs in on top of it all. They finished it off by dumping a full bag of shredded cheese on top. Drunk food at its finest, right? I knew I'd be paying for this one the next day.

In true birthday spirit, the girls all dragged Rowdie to her room and stripped her down to give her birthday spankings on her bare ass. I heard the smack from across the apartment. They laid into her so hard as she laughed and screamed. Four girls holding down a naked girl and slapping her ass was definitely something I had to see. But it got better...then they all laid in the bed laughing, tickling each other and eventually making out. I felt more like it was my birthday.

Finally vacated at about 3:30 and told Rowdie happy birthday. She wanted me to stay but I've pretty well had her all that I care to. Besides, she was so drunk, and I wasn't feeling like jumping in bed with somebody that hammered. I did however kiss the roommate who I wouldn't mind getting sweaty with. Maybe another day...

I went back to my office and passed out about 4 a.m. Once again...good grief I live a lot in a day!!!

Wed, Sep 29, 2011 - Rough Sex

 Pretty tired...I'll admit it. I gotta catch up on some rest. But I was determined to get back on track with my workload. Anytime I start dragging my feet about work, nothing new comes in. Though I don't have any looming deadlines, I want to get a jump start on existing work to open the door for more new business to come through the conduit. Worked diligently all day...got a ton of web work done on the projects, had a good talk with a google rep about why my site was getting denied service. Explained my case and he escalated it to supervisor level.

Started the yahoo ad system too...let you know how that turns out as soon as I have an update.

Facebook is killing me! They keep denying my ads! They won't let anything run or tell me what to change to fix it...assholes.

After work, I took Rain some chicken soup. She's under the weather. Or at least I thought she was. I really think she was just still unrecovered from our very late night with the drinking and the threesome. She came home from work early and slept all afternoon. She was still out when I got there and didn't answer the door. 

I slipped around back and let myself in through the patio door she had apparently forgotten to lock. I walked to her room, and sure enough, she was sleeping soundly. I was wearing hard-soled dress shoes that clicked on her hardwood floor. She heard me, woke up enough to barely open her eyes, looked up, and then let out this TERRIBLE gasp as she realized someone was in her room! I felt pretty shitty about that one. Really should have announced myself on the way through the house...note to self.

She got over it quickly, though. Resilient little thing. I laid down with her for a bit and we snuggled. I wanted her to get to feeling better, and she seemed to be improving by the minute. We ate soup and sandwiches from Schlotzsky's, laughed a lot, told goofy stories, then I held her down and fucked her like a wild animal. She fought back to get me to drive her down harder. She bit into my chest and neck as I squeezed her shoulders tighter, fighting my way between her legs and plunging my rock-hard cock so far into her tight little sweet spot that she threw her head back and let out a heart-pounding moan. We writhed around in the bed fighting each other, gyrating together, from one end of the bed to the other.

She REALLY likes being restrained a little, apparently. It went from rough sex to sweet sex, to monumentally powerful sex...literally the sweatiest we've ever gotten, just absolutely dripping! We laid there a bit, blown away by how tremendous our sex is. 

I blurted out the heartfelt (and ridiculously sappy) comment that it was like cinnamon rolls. She laughed so hard she nearly cried. But seriously, that's what it reminded me of in that moment - sweet, hot, spicy, rich, dripping with decadent topping, ultimately pleasurable, and pretty naughty at the same time. Great great sex. We showered together where she realized she had bitten me to a bright purple bruise near my collar bone. And I realized I had squeezed her shoulder so hard (most likely during my extra long orgasm) that I had left a big thumb print bruise on her and broken some blood vessels. GRRRR!!!

After cleaning up and making my usual late-night exit, I finished the night off hanging out at my favorite live music bar alone...well not exactly alone. Met a pretty sexy bartender who just turned 21 last week. We're gonna start hanging out.

Mon, Sep 26, 2011 - Tue the 27th - Great Threesome

 (basically all one day)

Working fast after blowing a deadline on some paperwork this weekend. The drinks I had the night I should have been writing the business ended up costing me $450. Definitely not worth the loss.

Great work session at the coffice with my buddy, Dutch, planning for the new seminar series! This could be big!

So somewhere along the way that day, I got invited out for drinks by Rain and Juno. Juno's husband is out of town for several days for company training, and she's feeling pretty footloose and fancy free. Pretty sure I knew where that might lead. 

I showed up and proceeded to drop just over $100 on dinner and drinks. Alcohol consumption leading to poor decision making, we all trekked on over to Juno's house. We got the tour of the place, ending in the bedroom. 

Note to anyone who likes to entertain and wind up having sex later...always start your tour with boring parts of the house, move from there to the cooler stuff, your art, collections, music, backyard deck, things like that...stop by the kitchen or bar next to make drinks and have some laughs...then remember that you never finished the tour, and end up in the bedroom...your "sanctuary" unless of course you have a hot tub. Then your best bet is probably to end the tour there.

As we walked into the bedroom, I commented, "Good grief this bed is huge!" I jumped onto it, knowing they'd jump with me. Laughter, teasing, sex talk ensued. As the talk was getting dirtier, Juno said she had an old copy of "The Joy of Sex." That book is legendary! I'd never actually seen one before. It was insanely hilarious, having been written (and illustrated) in the sixties. My favorite picture was the one of the orgy with the old, bearded, naked guy playing guitar in the middle of the whole thing, and all the women fully sporting their armpit hair. The book itself was great, actually. It had sections devoted to all the things that are great about sex, especially open and uninhibited sex. Here's a link to the book if you want one.

As the girls were giggling and looking at dirty drawings, I took the opportunity to remove myself from the situation for just a few minute to let them get each other worked up. I slipped off to the restroom, though I didn't need to go. I waited outside the bedroom door listening to their conversation, laughing, and tickling until one of them said the magic words..."where did he go?"

I walked in at that very second and did a flip onto the king-size bed. The girls screamed and laughed. The moment was right...I pulled my shirt off and grabbed Rain. I kissed her deeply as Juno leaned in. The two of them kissed next - those sweet soft kisses that women give each other. I kissed Juno as she pulled Rain's shirt off. They had been out bicycling together that day, and both were wearing athletic shorts and t-shirts. They were a little salty from the activity...even better.

They continued to kiss as they took each other's clothes off...slipping shorts down over legs...slipping panties down after that...sports bras lifted over heads of tussled hair. It really is a thing of beauty to watch two women undress each other. 

I slipped in behind Rain as she nestled down next to Juno, sliding my hand between her thighs. She was wet as I touched her lips and slid my finger between them and up to her clitoris. I knew she loved to be stimulated with pretty firm pressure and massaging. She opened her legs and Juno slid down between them to enjoy that little pearl herself. 

I watched for a moment, taking in the thrill and excitement I got from the look of pleasure on Rain's face as she grabbed Juno's hair and held on for the ride.  Apparently Juno is pretty good at cunnilingus. Juno took a break and came up to spend some time on Rain's beautiful, young breasts, per little pink nipples hard from excitement and stimulation. Juno couldn't help but stay there a while, licking and sucking on them. 

As she made her way back down between Rain's legs, I moved in behind her and slid my cock into her...deep into her. She moaned, and I was electrified. I kept going slowly, just smoothly sliding in and out of her. I love that feeling, as you're slowly pulling your shaft out, and you can feel a woman squeezing down to feel the friction. 

I held onto her hips as I sped up and started driving it deep into her with some force...she got more and more excited, grabbing onto the sheets and balling them up in her clenched fists. She stopped sucking on Rain's clit and just felt the pleasure of the throbbing penis inside her.

Rain slid up out of the way at that point and said it was her turn. She laid Juno down on her back and started sucking on her nipples as she slid her hand up between Juno's thighs. It didn't take her long to bury her face between Juno's legs and start returning the favor she'd just received. And it didn't take me long to bury my soldier deep inside her.

She was younger, and her vagina felt different from Juno's. Juno has had a couple of kids, and she's a bit heavy, so she felt softer and more plump and pillowy inside. Rain has a smooth, clean, nubile pussy, and it's so nice to be inside it. 

I backed out and leaned down to slide my tongue inside it. I love that woman's gorgeous little love blossom, with the slim lips held in tight against her completely shaven field of dreams.

About that time, Rain literally tapped me on the shoulder, like a wrestler tapping in his tag team partner. She wanted me to go down on Juno.  I soon found out why. I'm guessing it was the bicycling that gave Juno that "not so fresh" taste and smell. Although, Rain had biked the same distance in the same heat and tasted just heavenly. Anyway, it didn't take me long to realize that I didn't want to be down there. I pulled back and realized that I had gotten completely turned off. 

I played with them a while, touching here, kissing there...but ultimately I was drained. It was 4 in the morning, and I was done. I laid down next to them on the bed as they continued to play with each other. I heard Juno say, "well that's a little disappointing." I didn't care. I was quickly passing out. At the time I couldn't figure out why I was so out of it...until the next day at lunch when Juno helped me count up my 13 drinks, pre-coma.

We woke up a couple hours later, naked, huddled together, cold, on top of the covers. I decided to go to Rain's house to stay. Spent the morning in bed with her..so enjoy that girl. She ended up calling in sick that day. We were exhausted.

About 9 or so in the morning, we had some really sweet and soft lovemaking, followed by our usual, full body explosion finishes that leave us gasping for breath and glistening with sweat. Yum. 

I did make it into my office and even worked a bit, but awfully drained. Hung out with the kids for the evening, watching Glee. Good times with those kids. As teenagers, they've turned into really excellent company. I truly love them so much.

 

I made an exit when Barbie showed up for the night. I knew she didn't want me hanging around, so I headed out to the wine bar downtown to listen to the acoustic singer-songwriter they bring in every Tuesday night. As I sat there, I texted Rowdie for a while. She and her gang were inviting me out for beers, but I wasn't feeling her crowd for the night. 

So it occurred to me to hit up Sassy, a spunky (actually kind of bitchy) short, sexy woman I've known for a while. Though it was 10 at night when I text her, she met me for drinks which turned into hours of conversation. I truly can't decide how to feel about her. Pretty sure I don't like her bitchy disposition. But she is smart and confident, and we seem to be able to talk endlessly without missing a beat or paying attention to time.  I do like that. Ultimately,  I probably won't ever do anything with her. I can't stand cranky people.

About 2 am, I crashed hard for the night on my office couch. I'd gotten roughly 5 hours sleep in the last 3 days. When I woke up at 6:30 to vacate my office, I skipped the gym and actually slept another couple hours in the front seat of my truck before starting my Wednesday. I'm exhausted...but sure not complaining.